It's so hard to say see you later...

People keep asking if I like my new place. I'm not sure how to answer them. I like making my own rules and being responsible for me. I am finally the one who gets to make my life choices. If my dad has to move, I don't have to go with him. If someone makes me mad, and all I want to do is get away, I have somewhere I can go. It's nice to have all this space after being so crowded for my whole life.

But I almost miss the crush. I miss my sister being around all the time. I didn't have to call her to talk to her. I miss my brother. He's been gone for a while, and I wish he'd come back. I don't know what to say to make him want to come back. People grow up and they grow apart, which I always thought was an excuse people gave when they just didn't want to make the effort anymore. I wonder if it's true, though. I used to be such good friends with her. Now I'm not sure I recognize her at all. Can she have changed that much? Or was I just not paying close enough attention before?

So while I can't wait to decide on a color and paint these bland, kind of dingy walls, being on my own is a kind of lonely I never had to be before. And I've been compensating with a lot of Netflix.

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  1. TigorisNovember 9, 2013 at 9:45 PM

    People can grow apart as they age, but they can also grow back together and be even closer than before. Never give up on reaching out to those you love. If you feel lonely, force yourself to get out and into the world, even if you have nothing to do. You'll be more comfortable in your new place soon. Give it some time.

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