And As Our Lives Change From Whatever
Thinking about the future is seriously scary. I'm sure I don't have tell any of you that, though. I'm sure you all know. When I do, think about the future, I mean, I get so overwhelmed with fear that I stop. I do something else. But eventually I have to stop avoiding the question and figure out an answer. And I have this horrifying feeling that eventually has come, and I can't do this anymore. I have to start being a grown up. I think that may be why I put my diploma in Dad's room. Every time I looked at it, I had this sense that it was important, and that it meant something more than just a pretty piece of paper. And I don't know how to deal with that. I thought it was supposed to be a world-opener, but I'm sure how much more of the world is available to me. So I'm about to apply for a job. I've applied for three jobs since I officially finished classes. Two never called me back, and the other I blew by waiting too long. I've waited a wh...