sincerely, me

You can realize something more than once. Did you know that? All it takes is faith that whatever it was will change. Say, you have a friend. You realize something about that friend. Sometimes what you realize is something you don't like. Say that this friend is a thief. She or he steals things from stores, from friends, from whoever it may be. All you need to re-realize that fact about your friend is to hope and to have faith that that person will change. I re-realized I'm a hypocrite today. It wasn't a good feeling. It was like a metaphorical sucker punch to the gut. My whole body felt hot, especially my face. I suddenly felt the need to get away from everyone around me, to take a break from people. I went to get some water, which really just made my throat feel full. I hated it. And I really didn't like myself. I want to be a better person. I want to lead others to be better people. And I want those people to want me to lead them to be better people. ASIDE...

I cannot do anything else while watching Netflix. I'm trying to do that right now, and it's so distracting I've had this webpage open for ten minutes. It took me another minute to start the second sentence. And I got distracted enough it took me a moment to put the period on that sentence. My point is, it's pretty easy to get distracted from ultimate goals. My goal now is to write a post every Tuesday. I've already been distracted from that goal for a week. And I can't stop being distracted. How I Met Your Mother keeps playing beside this screen (super cool thing I just learned my computer can do). I'm not stopping it. I've thought about pausing it several times, but haven't done it. In life, we run into a lot of distractions. We might also call them obstacles. They move you away from a goal or path in life. Some drop out of college to start a family. Some hold off on family to get to the top. I am being distracted. By Barney Stinson, Christmas, ...