sincerely, me

I've been thinking a lot about relationships lately. And by lately, I mean my entire life. They baffle me. I can be a part of them, of course, but I still have no idea what makes or breaks a relationship. How does a family become separate people? How do two people come together to make a family? What happens between two people that makes them decide to stay together forever? And what pushes them apart? According to the CDC , in 2011, 7.4 per 1000 people in Florida got married. That's down from 10.9 in 1990. Apparently, forever love is getting less popular... Coincidentally, so is divorce. 4.5 per 1000 got divorced in 2011, while 6.3 per 1000 divorced in 1990. I didn't mean to get into statistics, though they are interesting. It's not the reasons that people get together that I don't understand. I know the reasons why I love my sister, and I know why I like to be around her. It's the abstract bit about the relationship between people that I can't get my...

Have you ever wished you could tell someone what you really think? Have you ever told someone what you really think? Would the truth really make things better? Easier? Would it change anything? I want to tell the truth. I want to tell someone what I really think about her life-threatening habits. I want to make her see they are hurting her, and everyone around her. I want her to know that I love her, but she can't continue in the way she's moving. I say "she's losing it," and I mean it. I want to help her get it back. But she wouldn't listen to me. I'm afraid she wouldn't listen to me. And I'm afraid that my truths would push her away. Typically, she'd be the one person on Earth I can always count on to love me, no matter what I say or do. For others, she is. But I know that it's possible for her to hate me, to really hate me, if for only a few moments. And I don't want her to hate me. So I can't tell her the truth. No matt...

People keep asking if I like my new place. I'm not sure how to answer them. I like making my own rules and being responsible for me. I am finally the one who gets to make my life choices. If my dad has to move, I don't have to go with him. If someone makes me mad, and all I want to do is get away, I have somewhere I can go. It's nice to have all this space after being so crowded for my whole life. But I almost miss the crush. I miss my sister being around all the time. I didn't have to call her to talk to her. I miss my brother. He's been gone for a while, and I wish he'd come back. I don't know what to say to make him want to come back. People grow up and they grow apart, which I always thought was an excuse people gave when they just didn't want to make the effort anymore. I wonder if it's true, though. I used to be such good friends with her. Now I'm not sure I recognize her at all. Can she have changed that much? Or was I just not paying cl...